And She Doesn’t Love You Anymore…
Well, yeah, my post is pretty much about that.
This is really the only outlet I can have about Lauren that probably won’t get back to her, and god forbid that she gets wind of it.
I’m pretty sure she doesn’t want to be with me anymore.
First thing’s first, in case you haven’t noticed already, I get really invested in people. I love giving my all and feeling like there is one person who needs me.
And at the start, she gave me exactly that, I felt like I was one of the most important things in her life, and I haven’t known her for that long and I already feel that way, she is one of the most delicate people I know.
But now, she seems so distant, and really reluctant to be with me.
And this is pretty quickly after we had an argument about some arsehole bothering her, I was trying to give her advice, and I felt kind of like I hurt her. I was going to say something, but I had to leave and couldn’t.
It didn’t seem really important at the time, but now it feels like it has a huge bearing on everything.
I haven’t seen her in a few days, and it might just be that we’ve missed whatever physical relationship stuff we have.
Buuut, on that note, I don’t want to be overly physical at the same time, because she’s had bad relationships before where the guys just used her.
I hate trying to be the perfect boyfriend, but I love the feeling of having another half. And she’s really the only good thing I’ve got going for me at the moment.
I think that might be just it… She doesn’t like me anymore, but she really wants to stay in the relationship. Our one month is coming up, and if it was me, I wouldn’t want to dump somebody two days before that sort of thing. Especially since it’s me and she thinks I’ve got this massive thing planned or something.
Ahh fuck… I’m seeing her tomorrow, so I might find out then….
We’ll all see.
Ciao, and thanks for trying to care.
